One Of The Great Things About The West Coast

Catalyst West. Our first time. It won’t be our last!


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Yelp Help

Liz and I both have used Yelp for years.  On my work trip to Washington D.C. I turned to Yelp for help finding a unique restaurant that wasn’t to be missed. Since this was in the outskirts of Georgetown on a Thursday night I decided to hit the tab for “make reservation”.  Oops.  I’d never properly signed up for Yelp and had been a lurker up until this point.  The interview subject was arriving for the shoot and the producer was looking to me to see if I was going to let dining preparations slow us down.  I quickly signed up, made the reservation, and got back to work.

The next day I received a Yelp email request to submit a review.  I was sitting in the airport waiting for my flight so I thought what the heck, I’ll send in a review. Funny, the restaurant promptly responded with a thank you letter.

Awe.  Lovefest.

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Homeward Bound

@SLC yesterday looking toward the storms in the west

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The Definition Of Envy…

What I’m Experiencing Right Now!

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Expensive View

As Liz is on an airplane heading east again this morning I thought I’d post a picture from our most recent plane trip together.

Expensive View

N208JH, Cessna Grand Caravan 208, Flight Level 110, heading WNW toward FXE, less than an hour of sunlight left over the Great Bahama Bank

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February 10, 2014 · 9:22 am

Rush Hour at Staniel Cay Yacht Club, Exuma, Bahamas

Rush Hour at Staniel Cay Yacht Club, Exuma, Bahamas

Rush Hour at Staniel Cay Yacht Club, Exuma, Bahamas


February 3, 2014 · 10:38 am

Feliz ano nuevo 2014!

Liz made a New Year’s Eve Facebook post yesterday that I think appropriately sums up our gratification for 2013.  Here it is for those of you who are not on FB.

2013 has been an amazing year for me.

I lost myself so I could be found.

I live in the biggest, smallest community I know with an amazing group of people who show me love and who genuinely seem to like being around me as much as I enjoy being around them.

I love and live with my best friend, who supports me and puts up with me just the way I am.

I have a loving and close-knit family.

Feeling very blessed as 2013 comes to a close.

2014 you have a tough act to follow. I’m nervous, but excited to see what you have in store for me.

Happy New Year!

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Two Parents


The best a son can hope for, the best a son can wish for, is to have two parents.

Two parents that say I DO, then do.
Two parents that promise to stick through thick and thin, then do.
Two parents that stick through better and worse.
Two parents that stick through richer and poorer.
Two parents that stick through sickness and sicker.
Two parents that take death to rip them apart.

Two parents that make tough decisions to forgo jewels and riches and instead send their son wherever is necessary to straighten his feet, straighten his teeth, straighten his head so he can have a chance at walking straight and smiling through his own tough decisions.

Two parents that taught about freedom by giving a son what seemed like an ocean to explore. First just within sight of the dock. A couple of summers later as far as Jim’s Landing. Then as far as he dared to go.

Two parents that had the patience not to ask why the boat gas tank that was filled yesterday morning needs to be refilled again today.

Ten summers, a thousand sunsets, a half century of unforgotten memories.

Two parents whose unspecific and unspoken wishes lead to a unanimous decision among those left behind as to where their life was the most peaceful, the most fulfilling, and their time best spent.

Today was my day of reminiscing. Including catching up with childhood friends I haven’t seen in thirty years. And closing some chapters of my own 51 years. Thank you John, Mike, Mark, Christopher, Teressa, and Liz for being a part of my Friday.

A journey that began 19 days short of 54 years ago at a little mountain church in Western North Carolina ended today with one final sunset cruise around the lake.

To my parents, Allen and Lillian, here’s to your next thousand sunsets together.

Your son, Jon



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Yesterday while reflecting on being one month since my mom’s passing with a full moon again in the night sky, I thought of the following news article (click on the picture for the hyperlink).  Alzheimer’s is a huge expense in the US (more than cancer or heart disease) and forecast to get even higher.

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Hell On Earth, Easter Sunday, and Birthdays

It’s been a little over two years since I wrote A Different Perspective,  then Gone, then It Wasn’t The Kool-Aid,  three previous ramblings about my mother’s Alzheimer’s care.  This past weekend I was moved to write a fourth and final chapter.  Click on the titles above to read them in their original order, reading this chapter last.

Today’s grief takes place at the same residential memory care facility.  Same forty-five miles from the nearest large town.  Same poor cell service.  Same dull, dreary, rainy, weather.

The first thing I noticed in the central living room area were two more men this time for a total of four.  I decided that men’s shorter life span is a blessing.  As I sat, more of the surroundings sunk in.  This time I was less afraid to look, listen, or touch.  Men have it easier.

Get past the woman who is constantly moving.  She must think she’s in charge.  Always bustling around.  Sometimes stopping to ask an unintelligible question.  Sometimes to offer imaginary objects with arthritic hands.

Get past another woman who is constantly walking the perimeter. She must think she is the security department.  Always testing the locked doors.  Constantly exiting to the fenced courtyard.  The alarm sounds, an obnoxious blaring wails from a keypad on the wall.  Short-staffed, one of the workers has to go retrieve her and silence the alarm.  Another ten minutes pass and it happens again.  Over and over.

Get past two obviously recent arrivals.  They both display the countenance ladies born in the 30’s or 40’s have when going out in public.  Hair straight, dressed nice, shiny shoes.  One carries a purse.  There isn’t a thing in her purse she could need.  She can’t leave.  She’ll never leave again unless accompanied by staff or a loved one.

Get past my memories of black and white TV movie depictions of mental wards.  The sights and sounds are very similar.  But this is in color.  And it’s real.  Live.  Right in front of me.  These weren’t actors I was in the room with.  Or were they… In various stages of mental decline and dementia they were all acting.  Acting out physical life in different degrees of detachment from where their thoughts are, or used to be.

Get past the central living room area that could use remodeling and furniture that could use upholstering and objects from yesterday’s or last week’s activity time that still weren’t put away.  All that might seem important but doesn’t matter to the memory care unit residents who are just trying to get by.

Get past the too-loud television tuned to the cartoon channel or the just barely color reruns network.

Get past the VHS tape that’s been played way to many times during movie hour.  You remember VHS tapes. The picture distorts and bands crawl slowly down the screen as if the player is just about to eat the tape for the final time.

Get past the lady in the wheel chair with beach towels on her lap to soak up the phlegm spewing out of her mouth like she’s throwing up.  She’s in obvious pain or fear or disconcertion but she can’t communicate her thoughts or feelings or suffering.

Get past looking at discarded ghosts and instead look at people.  People who once loved, once fathered or mothered, maybe raised a family, provided for a household, possibly made great contributions to church, community, or mankind.  But today, they sit.  Communicating little or not at all.  Comforted as best they can be by a caring staff or occasional visitor or family member.  Yet, stuck forever behind the electronic door with the obnoxious blaring keypad on the wall.

Most don’t interact. It’s like being in a foreign country with no grasp of the local language and hand gestures aren’t even a satisfactory method to communicate.  It’s like the longer they are captives here the thicker the individual isolation walls grow around each one of them.

As I sat there holding my mom’s hand she mostly stares down at the floor.  Glancing up occasionally to look at me or my wife.  Sometimes smiling back for a moment,  stopping as if she is about to speak.  Then like being in a crowd of strangers or being ashamed, she breaks eye contact and turns away from looking directly as us.  Grasping my hand, touching my wedding ring, and occasional glances are all that are possible.  She’s still gone.

Isolation.  They are all here but not all there.  Their time to dream dreams, set goals, or make important decisions is over.  Now it’s minute by minute, hour by hour, day by day, week by week, month by month, and maybe, year by year.  Over and over again.  No one knows how long they will be here.  But here is all they have left.  Isolation.  Gone.

The isolation is so real.  I can see it in their eyes.  Helplessness.  Confusion.  Uncertainty.  I can hear it in their groans or attempts at communication.  I can feel it as my body aches thinking of spending my days like them in a wheel chair with no way to communicate.

The isolation forecast is forever.  As long as they are still here on earth this is how they will spend their days.  And the longer they live the worse it will get.

Their faces reflect varying degrees of resignation, separation, and fear. Desperate for mercy.  Desperate for relief.  This place isn’t where they wanted to finish life.  They might have put up a fight before being sentenced to this emptiness.  They didn’t want the memories of their lives to turn into this.  They didn’t make any life mistakes punishing them to this isolation.  They didn’t set out to be prisoners in this place behind the electronic door with the blaring keypad on the wall.  It just happened.

I am in a fog.  Minutes seem like years.  I don’t know what to do. I don’t know what to say.  I don’t know how to act.  I feel powerless to make a difference.  Caregiving is not my strong suit.  This situation is not something my own wisdom, strength, or determination could fix.  All I could do is extend my hand and wait to see if it was accepted.


For the past several years friends have asked me if my mother still recognized me.  Over and over that was the test of how advanced her dementia was.  Does she still recognize you?  Last weekend I learned a new test.  I did not recognize my mother.  My wife picked her out immediately.  I didn’t.  Mom didn’t look like anything from my memories.  Even as we sat down it took me several minutes to accept she could be the same mom I once knew.  A masking tape label on the wheel chair with a handwritten “Lillian” was the best evidence.  I had a different perspective.

My mother was the lady with the beach towels on her lap.  While the hospice nurse was called and took her away to check her lungs I sat and wondered if this was a glimpse of hell.  Nothing to look forward to.  No break from the pain.  No end to the grief.  No happier times to anticipate.  No way to escape sinking deeper into emptiness.  Why?  Why are these people here?  What good could come out of this?  Yes, this was hell.  Hell On Earth.

Then I got past the sights and sounds of what was in front of me.  I remembered I was sitting there on Palm Sunday.  Palm Sunday.  A great party.  The day Jesus rode triumphantly into the city.  Only to have the middle of the week turn into public betrayal, then punishment, then isolation, and finally a cruel death.

The memory care residents here are way past their Palm Sundays.  Their earthly triumphs are over.  Their minds have betrayed them.  They are somewhere in the middle of the week.  They are victims in a limbo-like somewhere almost-gone isolation.  Minute by minute, hour by hour, day by day they sit in increasing gloom waiting to be set free.  Like a permanent dark Good Friday their world seems over.  Lives are fading to an end without meaning.  Any hope of restoration seems a long, long, long, way off while condemned to sit and wait in emptiness.

This week started with a Palm Sunday party and quickly progressed through terror, darkness, and a Good Friday of isolation.  It ends today with Easter Sunday.  The assurance that whatever we encounter here on earth is temporary.  We are here on earth for just a short time.  But Easter is forever.

Get past being proud and taking the risk that your place in eternity will just happen.  While you still can, behold.  While you still can, accept grace.  While you still can, make the biggest of all decisions.  While you still can, choose your final ending.  While you still can, choose to grasp His outstretched hand.

Good Friday is the darkest day of sacrifice.  It is the day Jesus was crucified on Mount Calvary.  Everyone mistook that day as the end.  Three and a half years wasted.  The King was just an ordinary man.  All hope was lost.  Isolation.  Darkness.  Fortunately, Easter Sunday was coming but Jesus had to go through the darkness to get us to Easter.

Easter Sunday is when the promise came together.  Hope came alive.  Hell was defeated.  We will be restored.  Transformed.  But only if we accept, believe, and commit.  Only if we choose to grasp His outstretched hand.  Now.  Before the obnoxious blaring keypad on the wall goes off for one final time.

Freedom from an eternity of isolation

Reflecting the unseen Risen Son back onto this dark earth


Just for accepting His outstretched hand

Thank you Jesus,

for Easter


Forty-eight hours after a worker punched numbers into the electronic keypad to let Liz and I leave, my mother was also set free.  Mom took a nap after dinner and died peacefully tucked in her bed.  She made it through her Good Friday.  Her Easter has arrived.

My dad died November 16, 2007, the same day as my grandfather’s (mom’s dad Roy E Garnett) birthday.  My mom, Lillian Garnett Nelson died this past Tuesday, March 26, 2013, the same day as my brother in law’s (Liz’s brother Jeff Mays) birthday.

This week, partway between Palm Sunday and Easter Sunday, I got “the call” that mom’s time on earth was over.  After being on the phone I walked outside to get some fresh air and my tearful eyes were greeted by a full moon rising above the trees.

Just as my mother was set free, a full moon rose over the trees to light her entry into heaven

A full moon, reflecting the unseen sun, back onto this dark earth

A full moon, candles on birthday cakes in heaven

Thank you mom, for your gracious heart, for your giving spirit, for everything.

Your son, Jon

Som & Mom - Palm Sunday 2013

Me & Mom – Palm Sunday 2013


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